Crashing

I have been going through so many interviews to know the process goes and yet, here i am, when i got the interview with the company i wanna work for, i got blank and goddamn nervous like a baby just learnt how to speak, i supposed to ace it cuz i had the experience and skills they want. Everyone told me interview is vibe check and i know that, yet i couldn’t fake myself out of nervous when i talked about my works. I cried afterward and seriously want to strangle myself after that interview, I‘m so used to rejection by now that I couldn’t even want to wait a rejection email from HR. I sent the HR thank you email for arranging everything and the talk with the seniors…i was the first one interviewing with them but honestly? i just want to tell them saying dont bother to reject me cuz i know i will be rejected anyway…im too disappointed with myself and tired.