Grinding

I am grinding LeetCode and programming for some time, I am a senior CS student. And boy, it is lonely and soul-sucking fucking 100%. Being alone and telling yourself that in the end this investment and pain endurance will payoff in the long-term and that will have a nice job and neat money that will help you become more attractive to girls so that you finally can have some fun and not be alone and deprived. It just breaks you when go out and see other people having the life that you want, and you keep telling yourself, when I reach the end, it will pay off and I will have money to go to the gym and buy products to make myself more attractive to put off this misery, it is just so painful, the loneliness is just so soul-sucking. This makes one hurt even more when I can not solve a problem or get rejected.