Ladies

AYE HUNDREDS OF APPLICATIONS, HUNDREDS OF LEETCODE PROBLEMS, COUNTLESS HOURS SPENT LEARNING SYSTEM DESIGN, REDESIGNING MY RESUME, CRAFTING STARRY STORIES, REHEARSING IN THE MIRROR, PRACTICING INTERVIEWS ON PRAMP, GRINDING PERSONAL PROJECTS, AND OF COURSE LEARNING FROM THE ONE TRUE GOD LEE215. YOU WHO READS THIS WHO IS STRUGGLING. YOU WHO READS THIS WHOSE HEART FLUTTERS AT THE THOUGHT OF AN INTERVIEW, WHO THINKS ONLY OF YOUR CHANCE TO MESS THINGS UP. WHOSE BRAIN THINKS ONLY OF DEPRESSION AND DECEIT. HEAR MY WORDS AND LEARN THEM WELL, THERE IS A PATH FOR YOU TO CRAWL YOUR WAY OUT. THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. SURELY I DID NOT SUFFER THE WORST BUT THERE WERE TIMES WHEN HOPE SEEMED A DISTANT STRANGER, A FORGOTTEN DREAM. DO NOT DESPAIR AND KEEP HOPE. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY, KEEP YOUR HEAD DOWN AND CONTINUE TO GRIND. MAKE YOUR GOAL TO FAIL AGAIN AND AGAIN. HAVE THE DISCIPLINE TO KNOW THAT WHICH EACH FAILURE YOU INCH YOUR WAY CLOSER TO SUCCESS AND THAT ELUSIVE OFFER. On a more serious note, if people want actual advice and tips, and a more detailed examination of my journey I can give whatever advice. I really failed a lot but kept trying. At times I felt completely left behind and that I was ruining my life and my future. Nobody really understood the situation besides my fellow software engineers since other careers’ interviews just don’t really compare (or so I believe). Please don’t give up and PLEASE make sure you’re maintaining some sort of exercise routine and order in your life. I didn’t hangout at all for the entire time besides one day for my friends birthday and worked everyday, facing rejections every week. It was brutal and arbitrary. Some people decide they like you enough and then you’re done. Interviewing is like being in shape and can be exercised. Do not give in to despair and helplessness!!