Feeling like a loser i havent got a summer intern for 2026

hi there to whom ever is reading this i want to share something i dont have anyone close enough to tell this and right now im feeling like a loser like piece of shit little info about myself my name is anjany currently a 3rd year cse guy from tier 1.5 clg with a decent enough cg 8.59 okay so i joined cs not because i was forced to you or someone said to i took cs because it always interests me i love computers so my current situation is that i know on-campus is just matter of luck even after you work hard so much still you cant control things that are out of your hand right so ever since i joined clg from my 1st year i started grinding i learned things and i did things when others where slacking off at my time my basics has always been a strong hold for me so right now i currently have an remote internship as an AI Engineer at a startup paid decent enough 15k per month but soon it will get end in april i started in jan so i know how much of advantages it plays when you apply to companies with an active internship so i applied too companies and got heared back from 2 really good companies one was Almabase( it was for GTM Intern major part was related with AI) and another was Kong API Gateway Company( it was for their Kong Engineering Summer internship program ) Almabase Experience for almabase they gave me task to build which i effectively made it for which i was just given 48 hours which then i completed it and submitted it then after 2 weeks i get mail that i have been moved to the next round their i had an interview with the HR in that he asked me about my past work experience and i told him everything i ever since i did and worked on my work experience and my projects then he said that he would contact me in 1 week but after 1 week was completed i sent him a follow up email but no response and after that i didnt recieve any futher email from about the process i was left ghosted Kong Experience now about Kong for this i had high hopes the company is really great and everything in the whole process went so smooth but at the end faced with the rejection so about Kong at first i applied without thinking much then after 4 days of applying the HR emailed me that i have been selected for the hiring process of Kong Engineering Internship process the HR that contacted me she was a Senior HR and she was responsible for my whole process she worked at Databricks before and now she is working at Kong okay so in the email that was sent to me that i have an inital interview with her where she discussed about my background futher and i told her all my work experience and projects that i have worked on the interview went about for 1 hour okay then she told me that she will contact me for futher process so after 9 days i recieved an email that i have 2 rounds of interview ( hiring manager round and technical round ) which was on 31st march so on that i was fully prepared with all my basics and DSA knowledge prior to the interview i solved some 10 easy-medium questions covering major DSA patterns okay now coming to the 1st interview the hiring manager round in this the interviewer was another engineering working at Kong he asked about my past work experience in much broder detail and he went on with detail and i answered every question he had regarding my past work experience the total time the interview went was 45 mins then after that i had 1.5 hours break then started my final technical round which was with an SDE-2 working at Kong the guy was really nice and calm so i started off with my introduction then he futher asked me core concepts questions ( it was mainly from computer networks and he also asked some database related question) which i answered it all without a sweat it went smooth then he gave me racing condition scenario i answered that as well now came the coding part the guy was really nice he actually asked me just code the pseudo code he asked me to implement a Rate Limiter which i did perfectly i was talking to him asking questions and stuff and everything after the interview i felt my technical round went much better than my hiring manager round and now after 1 week today i recieved an rejection mail from them im totally devasted and questioning my reality soon after 2-3 months my 4th year is going to start and i dont even have a summer internship for on-campus i have completely lost hope its all fucking luck based hiring pls i could use some tips now what to do futher pls help me